Khayali khawab

  She:  Main galat hoti hoon, phir bhi tum maafi maang lete ho… aisa kyun? My core:  Mere liye sahi hone se zyada, tumhara saath hona zaroori hai. Sahi-galat toh duniya ke tarazu mein tolne wali cheezein hain, Par mere pyaar ka wazan sirf ek cheez se naapta hai  tumhare saath se. Jeetne ka matlab kya hai, agar tum mere saath na raho? Aur haar bhi manzoor hai, agar haath mein tumhara haath ho. Mere ego se zyada important meri feelings hain, Aur un feelings ka har mod sirf tum tak jaake rukta hai. Galti kaun sehi kare, isse kya farq padta hai, Jab mera sach yeh hai ki main tumhare bina adhoora hoon? Mujhe haq aur galat ke beech ka raasta nahi chahiye, Mujhe bas tumhare saath ka woh manzil chahiye. Agar maafi maangne se tumhari aankhon mein woh sukoon laut aata hai, Toh main hazaar baar jhukne ko tayyar hoon. Kyunki mere liye “jeet” sirf tab hai, Jab hum dono saath hain sahi ya galat se parre.

  Warna subah se shaam tak thak toh bahut jaate hain… Din bhar logon mein ghule-mile rehte hain, Par raat aate hi khud se hi milte hain. Jo baatein muskaan ke neeche daba di thi, Woh khamoshiyan raat ko shor machaati hain. Har awaaz thami si lagti hai, Par andar ek toofaan sa bhadakta hai. Jo sapne din ke ujale mein kho gaye, Woh raat ke andhere mein aake ro dete hain. Ye khaali pan sirf tanhayi ka nahi, Ye un umeedon ka hai jo adhuri reh gayi. Woh baatein jo kabhi keh nahi paaye, Woh ehsaas jo khud se bhi chhupaaye. Neend aati nahi, kyunki dard sota nahi, Dil thak jaata hai, par gham kabhi thakta nahi. Har raat ek nayi ladaai si lagti hai, Apne hi khud se ek jung si chalti hai. Kash koi samjhta, is khaali pan ki gehraai, Ke kabhi kabhi sab kuch hone par bhi, Insaan andar se poora khaali ho jaata hai.

  Har din ek naya zakhm de jaata hai, Jeeta toh hoon, par zinda hone ka ehsaas kho jaata hai. Jo chehra duniya ko dikhata hoon hansne wala, Woh raat ke andhere mein aansuon se bhi bheeg jaata hai. Dil dhadak raha hai, par armaan saans nahi lete, Zinda hoon, par sapne aankhon se bahar nahi aate. Main lad raha hoon khud se, khud ko sambhalne ke liye, Par andar ka main… kab ka toot chuka hai jeene ke liye. Agar aise hi jeeta raha toh, Maut se pehle hi mar jaunga, Jism chalega duniya ke saath, Par rooh kahin andar hi kahin kho jaunga. Koi samjhe toh batana, Ki jeene ka matlab sirf saans lena nahi hota, Aur kabhi kabhi, insaan dikhai dene wali maut se nahi, Balki dikhai nahi dene wali khamoshiyon se mar jaata hai. Agar main aise hi jeeta raha toh… Mujhe marne ki zaroorat nahi padegi…

Ghar mein hoon… par ghar dhoond raha hoon. Deewarein toh hain, par apnapan kahin kho gaya hai, Har kone mein guzra waqt basa hai, par sukoon kahin so gaya hai. Rishto ke beech jo ehsaas tha, woh kab ka chhup gaya, Main apne hi ghar mein ek anjaana mehmaan ban gaya. Chhat toh hai, par saaya nahi milta, Log hain, par apna koi nahi dikhta. Muskaanon ke peeche thakaan chhupi hai, Aur baaton mein bas majboori lipti hai. Me sirf ek makan mein nahi, ek ehsaas me rehna chahta hoon, Jahan lafzon se zyada khamoshi samjhi jaaye, Jahan sirf saath hone se hi sukoon aa jaaye. Mai ghar mein hoon, par ghar dhoond raha hoon, Ek aisi jagah, jahan sirf deewarein nahi, Mere dil ka ek tukda basa ho… Jahan main sach me jee saku, sirf zinda na rahu.

  Ab main sirf ek din jee paunga, Baaki din toh bas nibha paunga. Zindagi jo kabhi sapna thi, Aaj ek bojh si lagne lagi hai. Maa se ab sirf hafte mein ek din mil paunga, Woh ek din, jisme meri saari thakaan suljh jayegi. Uske haathon ka khaana nahi, sukoon milega, Uski godi mein sirf aaram nahi, zindagi milegi. Roz roz toh bas majbooriyaan nibhaani hain, Sapne kahin daftaron mein daba diye hain. Par woh ek din, jab Maa ka pallu chhoo lunga, Lagta hai jaise poori duniya paa lunga. Maa ke saath guzra woh ek din, Mere saare saal pe bhaari hai. Baqi ke din toh bas khud ko sambhalna hai, Woh ek din hi meri zindagi ki jeet hai, Baqi sab toh sirf jeena hai, par jeet nahi. Ab main sirf ek din jee paunga, Aur woh din sirf Maa ke saath bitaunga.

Yeh sawaal har uss dil mein goonjta hai jo dard, uljhanon aur adhoore khwabon se bhara hota hai. Zindagi aksar aise mod par lakar khada kar deti hai jaha sab kuch dhundhla sa lagta hai jaise manzil door ho aur raste kahi kho gaye ho. Kabhi lagta hai ki bas thoda aur sabr, bas thoda aur intezar, aur sab kuch theek ho jayega. Lekin har betate pal ke sath dhairya ki dor kamzor padti jati hai, umeedein dheere dheere chup hone lagti hain, aur dil ek ajeeb si khalipan mehsoos karta hai. Par shayad isi ka naam zindagi hai ek ajeeb si paheli, jisme har sawaal ka jawab waqt ke paas hota hai. Hum jitna bhi bhaag le, jitna bhi samajhne ki koshish Kare, kuch cheezein apne samay par hi hoti hain. Shayad agli subah koi naye ujale ke saath aaye, shayad agla mod kisi naye raaste ki taraf khul jaye, ya shayad ek andekha lamha humein uss mukaam tak le jaye jahan sab kuch waqai sahi ho jaye. Tab tak, bas ek umeed ka diya jalaye rakhna hai kyunki intezar sirf dukh ka hissa nahi, kabhi kabhi naye suraj ke ...

  Mujhe puchna ye tha ki… jo duniya walo se haar jaye, woh ghar jaa sakta hai wapas apne logon ke paas, jahan use sambhal liya jaaye, jahan woh thoda toot bhi sakta hai, jahan uske aansuon ko dekhar use kamzor nahi samjha jaata, balki use aur pyaar diya jaata hai. Par jo ghar walo se haar jaye, woh kahaan jaaye? Jab apne hi samajhne se inkaar kar dein, jab apni hi baat sunna band kar dein, tab insaan ke paas jaane ko koi jagah nahi bachi rehti. Duniya se ladne ki taqat bhi tabhi milti hai jab ghar pe sukoon ho, jab ghar se ek ehsaas mile ki chahe baahar kuch bhi ho jaaye, yahaan toh humare apne humare saath khade rahenge. Par jab ghar hi humse munh mod le, toh insaan sirf zinda rehta hai, jeeta nahi. Jo log kehte hain ghar toh bas wapas aane ke liye hota hai, woh shayad yeh nahi samjhte ki ghar ek jagah nahi, ek ehsaas hota hai    jahan hum apne har dard ko utni hi aasani se rakh sakein jitni aasani se apni khushiyan baantte hain. Par jab ghar hi insaan ke dukh, uski kamz...

  Ek kamiyab mard ke peeche sirf ek aurat nahi, Balki ek baap ki poori jawani chhupi hoti hai. Woh baap, jiske sapne apne bete ke sapno me ghul gaye, Jisne apne armaanon ko khud se alag karke, Ek nayi zindagi, ek nayi ummeed ko jeena shuru kar diya. Woh baap jo kabhi nahi roka apne liye kuch maangne se, Par khud har zaroorat ko khud pe bojh samajh kar taal gaya. Jisne naye kapdon ki khwahish ko purane kapdon mein sil diya, Sirf is liye ki beta ek din naye sapne pehankar nikle. Jisne apni thakaan ka kabhi zikr nahi kiya, Jo dhoop mein jala, barish mein bhiga, sirf is umeed mein ki Uska beta ek din AC office mein baith kar kaam kare. Woh baap, jo khud school nahi jaa paaya, Par beta agar ek extra book bhi maange, Toh raat ko kam roti kha kar bhi uski kitaab laane ko tayyar raha. Ek kamiyab mard ke peeche sirf ek saathi nahi, Balki ek baap ka har wo din chhupa hota hai, Jo usne sirf is umeed mein jee liya, Ki uska beta usse kahin aage nikle, kahin zyada roshan ho. Baap toh ek aisi ros...

  Ghar sirf eet aur cement se nahi banta, balki apnapan se banta hai. Kabhi ek naye shehar ki galiyo me, toh kabhi kisi naye dost ki hasi mein, kabhi kisi chai ki tapri par ya kisi ajnabi se chhoti si baat cheet mein humein woh ehsaas mil jata hai jo ghar jaisa lagta hai.Har naye safar ke saath naye rishte, nayi yaade aur ek naya ghar milta hai bas humein use apnana aana chahiye. Isliye, jahaan bhi jao, wahan sirf rahne mat lago, wahan  ghar  bana lo.

Mujhe umeed hai ki yeh Khat tum tak pahuch jayega, Maine hum dono ke baare Me bohot socha hai jo kuch humne saath bitaya, jo khoya, aur jo reh gaya. Yeh sab likhna aasan nahi hai, lekin dil mein itni saari baatein hain jo mujhe kehni hain, chahe mujhe yeh na pata ho ki tumhe yeh padh ke kaisa mehsoos hoga. Sub to nahi keh apunga me, sub to hamesha hi mere ander rahega, sayad hi kabhi kisi ko us sub tak pahouchne do main  Sabse pehle, main tumhara shukriya ada karna chahta hoon. Shukriya un lamhon ke liye jo humne saath bitaye, hasi mazaak ke liye, pyaar ke liye, aur un seekhon ke liye jo badi mushkilon se mujhe mili hain. Tum meri zindagi ka ek bohot important hissa rahe ho, aur is baat ke liye main hamesha shukarguzar rahunga. Tumhare saath hone se maine apne baare mein, pyaar ke baare mein, aur kisi ke liye sacche dil se fikar karne ka matlab samjha. Mujhe pata hai ki sab kuch waisa nahi hua jaise humne socha tha, aur yeh baat aaj bhi kabhi kabhi mere dimaag mein aati hai. Kayi b...