Catch their lies

Part 1

 We are wise enough to catch their lies,

and yet so enamored by them that we still believe them.


These are my favorite lines by Gulzar Saab. They are my favorite because they perfectly capture what I have seen and felt. Sometimes, Gulzar Saab surprises me with how well he understands me, even better than I understand myself.


You might have heard these lines before, but you haven't heard the story behind why they mean so much to me.


About a year ago, when I was working in metro city, I had a friend there. We were more than just friends  it's a relationship that's hard to explain. I had to return to my hometown for my exams. She had just gotten a new phone, and for some reason, I had a bad feeling. So, I scanned her WhatsApp on my phone, just like that, without thinking much about it. I rarely checked her WhatsApp, but sometimes she would be online and not reply to me, which made me open her WhatsApp out of curiosity. I read all her chats and saw so many lies. She would tell me she had a headache and was going to sleep, while in reality, she was opening her room's door for someone else. Once, when I met her, I asked her if she had gone to sleep that day, and I saw her lie to my face without blinking, even though I had read all her chats and knew the truth. She was lying to me, even though I had seen everything.


I was with her for six months, and just four days after I left, she slept with someone else. When I confronted her, she said she was drunk and it just happened, without any regret. Even after that incident, she continued meeting that guy, letting him come to her room, and drinking with him.


Do you know what hurt the most? That I wasn't valued enough that you couldn't even say sorry to me once. You couldn't sit  and talk to me even once. Couldn't you say that you made a mistake and ask for forgiveness? You could have given me a chance, understood me, but it didn't matter to you. Since then, do you know how I have felt, how many nights I've stayed awake, how little I've slept, how much I've been troubled, 


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